Author Archives: Puff Of Smoke Poems

Fortune

In another dream, you could buy fortune, 20 cents each. You had to buy plenty of them, though. In the whole marketplace, stuffed with fortune vendors, each was in charge of just a tiny bit of fortune—your favorite color becoming famous, no flat tires in the rain, full moons on nights you wanted to stroll outdoors, fresh pomegranates on sale every day, no weeds in the garden—that kind of thing.

And payment was very confusing. It sounded straightforward—20 cents each. But as fast as people put down the coins, the fortune vendors were sliding back change across the counter and soon it was all flashes of gold and copper back and forth across the counter so fast that you couldn’t count anymore.

You step back, out of breath and headachey, clutching the coins you have left, not sure exactly what you’ve purchased or what else you ought to buy or if you’ve enough coins left for what you need.

That’s when you see it. Off to the left, in a stall apart from the others, up a little flight of rickety wooden stairs is a different kind of fortune vendor. You’ve heard of them in old stories, but didn’t think they were real. Or at least not still in existence. You certainly never thought to see one for yourself in this lifetime. But there she was, her booth so quiet compared to the bustling and shoving of the market.

And so you went to her. If nothing else, it was worth the quiet. No one else visited her stall. The whole idea was too preposterous, too old-fashioned. Pay your 20 cents and this lady would guarantee nothing. She’d just tell you your fortune. Whatever she saw. Out loud. It was amazing.

Mid-Winter Clearance

January is the month for tidying away,
For clearing the gilt
And boisterous glitter,
Sweeping the floors
Washing the windows
Sipping something warm from a mug
Steam rising to clear our heads
And let us see what remains
What is steady and present
Inside us
When the festive fades.

Biscotti

Your Christmas biscotti (our favorite gift)
is gone. We took it from its freezer bag,
dunked and ate the last of it with
our breakfast coffee, before my almost
graduate went back to college.
Holidays are done. School begins,
biscotti reduced to crumbs,
our angels packed away.
Here we are again
in this season called
Wait for Spring.

Story Begins: Evil Queens

Sometimes, instead of poem-shaped, words come together as pieces of stories we didn’t write yet.  Usually what lands in my lap tastes like the beginning of a story, something that would make a meal, or at the very least, a hearty snack, if I followed its scent to the kitchen, where the rest of it is simmering on the stove.  Here’s one now…

     Whenever the queen moved, small bones crunched beneath her feet. Tiny dead things caught at the hem of her red velvet gown, then fell away. It was as if, even in death, they wished to skitter and scramble far from her.
     Every fairy tale requires an evil queen. She must be lovely, and cold. Ice at every window of her castle.
     Yet, who froze your father’s bones in that distant winter?
     Who brought rains and drought to the farm fields outside the village?
     It wasn’t me, whispered the queen.

Winter Hats

Each
berry cluster
on the mountain ash
wears its tiny cap of snow
obediently. Mother tree says
that hats matter in the wintertime

Frozen

Another moment to freeze—this morning, you
at 22, unlikely gleam of excitement in your eyes—
Let’s go outside, you say, just to see how cold it is.

Frozen. The world dipped in ice. A moment
I can tuck away as we hurry back
to our cozy snowday house—
warm socks, thick novels, baking scones.

Frozen. This moment I would add
to all the winter memories of childhood—
How you and your brother celebrated snow
bundled up before breakfast
eager and laughing,
running to be out in the world.

Impossible Ice

What I meant to say about the cold
concerned the coziness of watching storms pass,
us safe inside, on the other side of the glass.
Instead, all I see are those tired faces on the news,
shelters full of people stripped of everything but
old clothes and the need to get out of the wind.
All comfortable words fail.

Like that day, visiting a city far from home,
when you first saw someone homeless—
A wild-eyed man, muttering to himself
as he dug through garbage cans.
Ten years old and shocked, you wanted to help,
to give him the warm, half-eaten pretzel in your hand,
and then wanted me —impossible—
To explain why I said no.

Watch It Glow

For the new year, this new wardrobe.
Remove all the old travel costumes:
Who I was
Who I thought I should be
Who you thought I should be
Who I feared becoming
Who I dreamed of being.

Done now with all the taking off, all the folding up
and giving away what no longer fits,
walk into the new year awake.
Carry only this woven basket of intentions—
To be gentle to others and myself,
lift my head from my tasks
and look around me as I travel,
rest when it is time to rest,
start a fire, small and steady,
and watch it glow.

Unexpected Recipe

Yesterday’s storm caught us
unprepared, separated,
stranded but safe.
Suddenly home alone
snowed in this Unexpected
Bowl of hours, I filled it
with shoveling snow
and making soup of the day
from what I had:
Chicken and coconut,
Sketchbook and sweater,
Worldbeat Radio,
Contentment and cookies.
Later, while the storm raged,
I filled a cup and sipped
the delicious day of quiet
falling everywhere, expansive,
soft and white.

Weekly Photo Challenge: JOY

Weekly Photo Challenge: JOY

A photo of my journals from 2013, now fat with words and ready to retire.

A Hundred Falling Veils

there's a poem in every day

The Novel Bunch

aka: The Happy Bookers

Red Wolf Prompts

I came to where you were living, up a stair. There was no one there.--John Ashberry, "The New Higher"

typewriter rodeo

custom poems on vintage typewriters

A Poet in Time

Poems by Mary Kendall

Writing the Day

A Ronka Poetry Practice Since 2014

Invisible Horse

Living in the moment